Life unexpected...
It's been a couple month since I had such an amazing roller-coaster emotional ride; I was mad, I was furious, I was so confused, I was depressed then I was happy and finally I feel great about myself again. At the moment I'm cautiously content and my emotions are more stable, which is good. It's easier to handle life when you're cool and calm and ,of course, full of consciousness. It was quite a good experience I've learn in this few month and I had to learn it the hard way to realize that I was such a terrible partner. I was wrong to ignore my partner's need, I was wrong to ignore his feelings and I was totally wrong to let the history of failed relationships which run in the family interfere in mine. If I am still stuck in/with the past, how can I have a future? Absolutely not. Despite all the facts and what happened, I still love him...very much. I don't expect anyone to understand why. I am a reasonable person so, if this is the way it is supposed to be,...