Life unexpected...
It's been a couple month since I had such an amazing roller-coaster emotional ride; I was mad, I was furious, I was so confused, I was depressed then I was happy and finally I feel great about myself again. At the moment I'm cautiously content and my emotions are more stable, which is good. It's easier to handle life when you're cool and calm and ,of course, full of consciousness.
It was quite a good experience I've learn in this few month and I had to learn it the hard way to realize that I was such a terrible partner. I was wrong to ignore my partner's need, I was wrong to ignore his feelings and I was totally wrong to let the history of failed relationships which run in the family interfere in mine. If I am still stuck in/with the past, how can I have a future? Absolutely not.
Despite all the facts and what happened, I still love him...very much. I don't expect anyone to understand why. I am a reasonable person so, if this is the way it is supposed to be, then I will take it as a lesson. To learn from my mistake, to increase the chance of a successful relationship in the future. To understand that 'relationship' means the life of two, not just only 'me' or 'you' but to have the life of 'us'. To love and respect each other, to compromise and to understand each other needs and to work things out together. Also any relationship without conversation is like a ship without its sail. I heard myself talking, I heard everything which was said but I didn't really listen and/or pay attention to it. So how was it supposed work? It definitely did not.
There wasn't exactly anyone to blame in this situation, we took the responsibility in our part. I am happy where I stand now. I don't expect much for the future but I'm sure there are some good chances waiting for me. But I will not put or push myself into another serious relationship too soon. I will take it easy from now on and take life as it comes, embrace every moments and enjoy life while I can because, my dear, you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow...
Live & Love,
Yosita Anita V.
It was quite a good experience I've learn in this few month and I had to learn it the hard way to realize that I was such a terrible partner. I was wrong to ignore my partner's need, I was wrong to ignore his feelings and I was totally wrong to let the history of failed relationships which run in the family interfere in mine. If I am still stuck in/with the past, how can I have a future? Absolutely not.
Despite all the facts and what happened, I still love him...very much. I don't expect anyone to understand why. I am a reasonable person so, if this is the way it is supposed to be, then I will take it as a lesson. To learn from my mistake, to increase the chance of a successful relationship in the future. To understand that 'relationship' means the life of two, not just only 'me' or 'you' but to have the life of 'us'. To love and respect each other, to compromise and to understand each other needs and to work things out together. Also any relationship without conversation is like a ship without its sail. I heard myself talking, I heard everything which was said but I didn't really listen and/or pay attention to it. So how was it supposed work? It definitely did not.
There wasn't exactly anyone to blame in this situation, we took the responsibility in our part. I am happy where I stand now. I don't expect much for the future but I'm sure there are some good chances waiting for me. But I will not put or push myself into another serious relationship too soon. I will take it easy from now on and take life as it comes, embrace every moments and enjoy life while I can because, my dear, you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow...
Live & Love,
Yosita Anita V.
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