The ship was sinking...once again

Every time when you are in relationships, you wish it will be the last. But it's just like any other story, they will always be the end.



There comes the time when you think that you are not getting any younger so you should start to be serious and no more playing around. I was serious and it seemed to be serious despite the fact that there was so many differences.



Someone said that I am "idealistic" in terms of relationships. But I would rather say that I am "realistic" with a compromise and flexibility, that how relationship should work. There's a quote saying, "Relationship is about 2 things. First, find out the similarities. Second, respect the differences." That quote is idealistic, but in reality, the differences could mean a whole world for someone. In reality when the differences kick in, respect or not, it would not spare any good memories.



In the end of the day, relationship means 2 people on the same ship. It's like when the ship has a hole and one person keeps fixing it while the other already give up, that ship will definitely go no where and it will eventually sinks.



I am at the age when you understand the situation enough that you don't whine about it any more. You don't need to find the fault or finger pointing or someone to blame, you just move on. Everything happens for a reason, as always. I'm not sad that it ends but I'm glad that this relationship happened. It makes me stronger alone, in this foreign country. I am always independent, so this is just a reminder that how strong I used to be and will continuously be.

I'm not giving up on love. I still believe in love. But right now, I am happy the way I am and I'm not rushing. If love wants me, it will find me...as always.
       

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