A lot more like "Love"

As an only child, I always have just only myself whom I can count on. I have just only myself whom I can trust. I have just only myself whom I can turn to. I've carried all the duty on my shoulders since the day you handed your life to me. The duty that's been written in the name of selfishness-cultural implanted. Spoiled child, I am not. If a drop of your tears is a step closer to the inferno, I am already in the depth of it. If a drop of my tears meant anything to you, I wouldn't be in the path of loneliness. If my love meant anything to you, my heart wouldn't be hunger for it. If my loyalty meant anything to you, my soul wouldn't be your slave. You've kept feeding me guilt, the guilt which once almost cost my life. The guilt which never been yours. I deserve the right of my own happiness without been telling what should I do to earn the enlightenment of bliss. My life cannot be valuated with any cost. My soul cannot be stigmatized by your accusation. My ...

I've been taking a French class at AF (Alliance Français) for a couple month already now just to refresh my dusty rusty memory. I was major French before when I was in Vocational school but by the time I finish (in 3 years), and also lack of practicing, most of it has been wiped out from my brain (what a pity and sorry to all my teachers who dedicated so much of their time). About 2 month ago, I just had a chance to practice the listening ability which proved that my French skill was terrible!! I spent 2 weeks in Switzerland and my french didn't improve much. I did catch some words that I know but not the entire conversation so when I lost my concentration then I was like 'nah...whatever'. I couldn't blame my partner for not helping but blame myself for not trying. If I've pushed myself hard enough, I could possibly do well in both french and mandarin (yeah I also took mandarin course as well in a while back but since I'm focusing on french, mandarin can wai...

We have been talking so many time about a book called "Women" for Dummies since a few friends of mine has some problems to understand their partners or women they've been dating with. But nobody seems to come up with any idea 'how' to write a 'how-to' book to understand women. There's "Men from Mars, Women from Venus", "The Game", and so many follow that famous "Men from Mars...". But still when it seriously comes to 'how-to' solve that mystery case called 'Women', we are clueless. Even if I am a woman, I still sometime don't understand my girl friends. I don't know exactly yet how to relate, include and conclude everything about me and compare to any other women but I assume that we are not far from different since I am also 'Woman'. I wish that at least this article will help you, guys, and educate you in the subject of 'Women'. But my pure and direct intention is this thought will...

Finally it's Sunday, our usual not-guilty-to-be-lazy day. But what's unusual was we got up pretty early and didn't have a big breakfast as we would always have. So we decided to go out for a nice Sunday lunch at one of our favorite restaurant 'Amici by Pomodoro' in Siam Paragon. We ordered Spinach salad with River prawn and porcini mushroom, Seafood soup and risotto. We sat there for a while, indulged the atmosphere and our drink then there's a family of parent with 2 kids and a baby plus 2 nannies entered into our peaceful moment. They were incredibly noisy so much that took me over the roof. But obviously there didn't annoyed just only me when a foreigner next to us started talking on a phone and told the end of the line what's going on here. He said it's impossible for him to find a nice and quiet restaurant in the shopping mall then there's a family on the back with 3 kids started making noise which pissed him off now. The scene didn't ov...

I started the day with the Memorial Service of Jon Molstad; boss, colleague, friend to so many people that I know. I met Jon a couple times and I didn't even talk much with him in person but I've heard ton of many good things about him through one of my best friend who happens to work with him and admire him so dearly. I decided to go paying respect to him at the service, it organized at Thai Temple which gave me some surprise actually. I've known and heard that foreigners become Buddhist and monk but never seen or been to foreigner's funeral at the Thai temple. I received the message that they want it to be the celebration of life and something but sadness so any color cloth was allowed. I am Thai and we grew up to the culture of wearing black to the funeral so it's hard not to wear black due to my belief. But not wearing black wasn't an issue to be concerned here, the neglect of their own culture was. As we wait for the service to begin suddenly my friend and ...

Today I spent time with mom, had lunch with her and also took some pictures of her. I felt great afterward. It's been a while since we had our last precious and peaceful moment. It sounds strange but you know the relationship between mother and daughter is sometime tense and sometime wonderful, same like mine. Because I'm her only child, so she's always overwhelmed and overreact with everything that involves 'me'. But I have to thank her for not raising me up as a spoiled brat. That's why I am how I am and who I am now. I am always her stubborn girl but that's how I would learn, make a mistake and understand I shouldn't do it again next time instead of listen to her all the time and never learn why. She still love me dearly even I've never stopped being such a stubborn child. I'm not so sure that she are happy about me being too independent but she now realize she can't change anything about that. I've clearly made my point that I am s...

It's been a couple weeks already since I came back from the trip but I just eventually had time to put myself all together to write it down and share my story. It was such an amazing and memorable trip and after being in Switzerland; home of cheeses (especially Gruyere and Emmental) and chocolate (Nestle & Lindt), for 2 weeks and Vienna for 2 days, I’m getting to love the place even if I ate a lot of cheese (of course the famous raclette but I didn’t have a chance to try fondue yet) and gained some weight because of it. I’ve felt in love with the fresh air, the beauty of nature, the architecture, food (but will never again have Thai food in Switzerland), the art of language and one particular thing that I admired about Switzerland is its character. Swiss culture is characterized by diversity due to the unusual situation of being the home of three of Europe's major languages (French, German & Italian). Swiss preserves their special chalet style every where up on the moun...

Today will be recorded as the day I start this blog 'Eat Live Love'. A blog to satisfy my craving of writing, a blog about my life and my passion of food, traveling, poem, etc. which separate from my other blog 'Life through films' (the blog about how movies can be related to our real life). The Love of food, I have to give that credit to my mom. She's a great chef who always cook something nice and love feeding me with good food but that makes me be a fussy eater. I love food just only when it's in a good combination of flavor and ingredient. Price and place are the second priority of my decision, that's how I am fussy. But I'm not a picky eater as I almost enjoy everything but carrot, that's all I ask. The Love of living, I lately start to love living this life again since a dramatic change last year. I've travel some places, met some interesting people, done some silly things and had some great friends. Even if my life is still unpredictable,...