Once a cheater...

Once a cheater...

Once a cheater I was...not so proud of myself but hey I'm not an angel, I'm just a girl who makes mistake like the other. I believe as someone said, "Love conquers everything.", so I always choose to be with someone I loved rather than someone I didn't and believed that everything would be ok just because love conquers everything. I chose to hand somebody else the sadness and keep the happiness to myself. I handed someone else the embarrassment but embraced the pleasure to myself. How nice I was...

Love is such a complicated subject. First I thought there isn't any definition because when you love someone, you just love them no matter what. But then "if you don't take good care of me, if you don't do this or that then I won't love you any more and I will go find someone else who can give me all of that." that's love I've learn...I first thought that love has no condition but to love. But I guess we all doesn't share the same idea...

So, I cheated because I believed I found the one...my missing piece. I cheated because I didn't get enough attention from my ex. I cheated because of the big gap between my ex and I. I cheated because I lost the love and interested in one but I found in the other. I cheated because I was naive enough to believe that love was everything. I cheated...I admit and won't find any excuses but apologized to those whom I hurt...

I have the history in my family which shall never be repeated but I did, any way, and it wasn't the first time...ask me why...I don't know. Blame it on the temptation, the loneliness, the lust...or even blame it on being human. And you still believe that you can trust me? "Once a cheater, always a cheater." as someone said so the chance is "you'll never know."

Why I'm telling you this? We all are imperfect, I made a lot of mistakes and trying to not repeat the same mistake. I've learn my lessons through the hard ways but that's how life's been teaching you. I just wanna share you the story, the experience, the opinion, the life through my eyes, from my point of view...Won't I be afraid that it will decrease my creditable? No...because I don't judge anyone for their past and I expect the same. If you judge people, you will loose time to get to know them. If you didn't get to know them then how would you know what kind of person they truly are. And I do believe in Karma as I've said so many times in my previous blog, what goes around will come around. That's another consequence I faced and learn the hard way as well.

Being a grownup doesn't make you wiser. Even if you have so many experience still can make you as an idiot sometime. We don't need to be a wise man but just try not to be an idiot who keeps repeating the same mistake...Could you? I think we will never know...


Yosita Anita V.

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