Rumors

Rumors

"Rumors are carried by hater, spread by fools and accepted by idiots.."

I'm sure any of you have been in the rumor, voluntary or not, once in your life. For I have, several time, as far as I remember. The first time I was in the rumor, which I didn't expect because I trusted everyone at the time as I was just so new to the business, I was absolutely shocked. People whom I used to adore and gave such a highly respect and supposed to help me through were the people who wanted me down. At the age of 20, the rumor about me being slut and slept with every men in the shooting team leaked out without my knowledge. 12 years ago that kind of news had tremendous effect upon my teenage life and my career. I was struggled, didn't know what to do next. I didn't have a clue how to fight back. Those people still insisted to refuse their supportive and completely faded out of my life. And look at them now...but I have to thank them, to those whom appear to be such a generous well-known people.... Thanks for teaching me not to judge people by their appearance. The drama might finish but they are still playing, in their real life. And you are as fake as the character you play...

Looking back at that time, if I was the person I am today. I would have been laughing and said "Yeah! I am slut and I f*** around so what! Can you do that!" And if they only knew that I was and still am bisexual then they might change to "she slept with all the boys and girls in the shooting team!"...oh well...that would have been more fun!

It's ridiculous how people has been fed with all this shit all the time, everyday, and they really believe it even enjoy and crave to know more. Whether they actually know the person or not, "accepted by idiots" surely does. Even those whom knew me started to doubt if I was that kind of person in the rumor. Where is your attentiveness? Where is your own thought?...

The second rumor I heard about myself was that I've been trying to catch an old white wealthy guy to marry me. That would be nice! So that I don't have to work my ass off everyday! I would have been traveling the world and been to every hi-so event! I laughed so much that I cried. I have education, I've been raised well, I have career, I have good friends who loves me and understands me so why would I have "catch" a wealthy guy? I'm not that desperate. But thanks any way to put me in the spotlight since now that I'm single, I might "catch" some attention.

Last I'd like to thank those whom both carried and spread the rumor as people will remember me and my name. Thank you so much for thinking of me. Without you guys, I would probably be nobody. I wouldn't be recognized and I would be forgotten. Thank you.


Yosita Anita V.

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