Just the way I...AM...

It takes me a long time to consider writing this...it takes all my courage to reveal another side of me. It might not be relevant to the day, Mother's day, but it shows the part of how loving, understanding and how awesome she is...as a mother whom loves her daughter, just the way I am...

There's a doubt. There's questions since the time when I confessed to those whom I loved, to my friends and my beloved mother but then I was hesitate...

Here and now, I'm gonna share you my side of story.

I don't want to be who I am now just because of a popularity or because it's sexy. But because this is me.

I found myself attracting to girls since I was in high school, could blame a girl school for that. But then it was back to normal for a while after I left high school. Until, about, 10 years ago that the interest of girls came back once again. When I, for the first time, share a moment with such an incredible person...

The longing of girls ceased when I was in relationship. I didn't feel like the need to spent a night or share an intimate moment with any girls. I am a royalty and a dedicated partner. I could be distracted, of course, by the sight of pretty girls but then I gave all respect to my partner. I admire both male and female character. They have their strength and softness but which way will it be in the future, I do not know at this moment.

I share this story just because I want you all to know that no matter who you are or whatever you choose to be, don't let anyone, ever, bring you down. If they're gonna love you then they have to accept who you truly are. My mother couldn't take it for a while but now she understands, "You're still my daughter and I love you no matter what." she said...

I just want to share because this is me and this is who I am...I wasn't born to be but the choice was mine to make and I am very proud of myself. If there's any concern, it's their problem but not mine, not with my mom...

In the end of the day I celebrated both Valentine and Mother's day with a woman I love the most in my life, my mother. If there would be any other woman in my life or any special man to share some special occasion in the future, we shall see...

Love you always,
Your daughter

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