That idiot is...ME...

When I left my previous relationship, I thought I learn a lot and also thought that I know everything about relationship but I am completely wrong.

Relationship is something you have to learn, understand and adjust everyday. And I have to learn it the hard way to realize my mistake.

I took advantage of the person I love, I took advantage of his generous. I was just shallow to think that he would be ok of me teasing him. I didn't know the limit and I totally crossed the line. It probably gave out such a terrible impression on me and also obviously bother him much more than I could dare to imagine.

I also realize now the power of social network. No, I didn't blame the messenger. None respond doesn't mean they didn't get the message. It's like you keep throwing paddles into a pond, the ring spread out further and bigger. The cost of damage? Unbearable...

I admitted my mistake, I take responsible for all my action and I'm not afraid to apologize. And I'm dealing with the consequences at the moment. I know I might not gain the fulled trust, but it's all myself to blame.

My dear, I love you and only you. I would never ever do anything to hurt you. I'm so sorry of what I have said out of my stupidity. I'm so sorry for being such an idiot.

I am so sorry from the deepest of my heart...

Yosita Anita V.

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