A lot more like "Love"

  What I learn from my lecture today is what most of us probably know from somewhere else. "Self-fulfilling Prophecies", which I understood as positive vibe will attract positive vibe and negative vibe will only attract negative vibe. Sounds familiar? I've learn it long time ago that negativity would not serve me well so did being around negative people would just only drain my energy. Have you ever felt so drain every time when you're with some certain people? It's like every time when you tried to cheer them up and when you spent time longer time with them, nothing would help and they still kept going with all the complaining, drama, and so on. I was there in that position, I kept receiving all the bad vibe and it's absolutely completely mentally drained me. No matter how much I tried to help them, no matter how many time I changed the subject, they would come back to their own problem and focusing on the bad part. So, it's not just only that my emotion ...

It's been a long plan that I want to study Psychology, even before the Pandemic, but I didn't have time to consider taking class. Until now.. There's many supported factors to the decision. 1st, I had an emotional breakdown last year in September because it's the time I supposed to be back in Bangkok but I was stuck here. 2nd, I had a couple session with therapist but I didn't find it satisfied to my needed. 3nd, there's a couple online sessions which company provide to employee. I  didn't find it useful as well because, to me, as a instructor, professional speaker, you need to study your audience. You need to know who you are talking to and even learn how to pronounce the company's name or else you are just reading your presentation. So that's it? You're paid to talk but not paid to care? You'd definitely lost me after 15 mins into the session. So, I finally decided to take class, not to understand any broken one nor trying to fix them but t...

I had my first tattoo 10 years ago and since then, I now have 8 of them.  The first one was Phoenix and it's quite a rush so I didn't have much time to choose through all designs. All I knew was I wanted Phoenix and I also didn't have enough time to do the bigger one. So there it was, my first tattoo as Phoenix. When I went home I didn't know how my mom would react because she always said that tattoo is only for those people who went to jail. Well, that's how Thais believe that people who has tattoo would probably come from prison. Anyway, I was surprised when she said why I didn't get a bigger if I already spent some times to have it done. So, I guess she didn't act overwhelming because I already had it so there's no point to argue about it.  Mom also warn me not to have any sacred tattoo done by those famous Ajarn who did it for Angelina Joli. What you need to know is that, those sacred tattoo has to be well maintain and I didn't mean by taking car...

The love of food probably started when I was young, my mom always cooked something nice at home. I loved helping her preparing meals but she never let me cook. She said that I would just mess it up in the kitchen so I didn't mind as long as she cooked amazing meal then I let she did her work. And also I was lucky that mom and dad were always adventurous when it came to food. I tried lots of cuisine when I was just a kid. I tried Japanese, Chinese, Indian, European, etc. Also I wasn't really a fussy eater. I love bitter gourd soup which mom cooked but I found out later that actually she didn't like bitter gourd at all but she cooked it so that I'd eat all kind of vegetables. Thanks my mom for that, yes I love all vegetables except carrot. I don't like carrot a bit but I still eat it because it supposes to be good for you, that's what mom said. I also love trying local food when I travelled I miss Thai food from time to time but I don't have to eat everyday. T...

Another year older, Yosita... When I was 20, I didn’t wanna be old at all but right now I’m 42 and I’m happy to be 42 years old grown woman. I’ve been through lots of thing. I’ve learned so many things and I've regretted nothing. I don't show my birthday on social media anymore and I also asked HR not to show it on monthly Birthday Celebrant. I don't feel like I need to announce it to the world and it's been over 40 years so I don't feel any excitement any longer. I prefer to just spend a day peacefully at my comfort environment. Who can remember, it's ok. Who cannot remember, that's fine. This year, thanks to my lovely teammates for the treat 😊 it's just another birthday, just another year to go. 42 years of being Yosita, it’s been rough, it’s been tough, it’s been great and it’s been worst. But to be honest, I would not change anything at all if I could go back in time. Because that’s all made me the person I am today. I might not like the perso...

I think I was away from FB for about a year until September 2020 that I decided to come back. Away in the meaning that I actually deleted my account, not just only being away without any activities going on.  It was a great decision until I realized that most people in the office has FB account and it's probably the only way to spread my work better than any other social media, isn't it?  Why I deleted my FB account? I felt, at that time, that there's too much drama going on around me and I didn't feel like consuming any of that shit. Most important thing was, my privacy was intruded. I didn't feel like blocking anyone, keep blocking content I didn't wanna see or deleting anyone so I deleted myself instead. But I still have IG accounts, because I love photography. And I can follow only content I wanna see. Why social media is so popular? it's where you can showoff, express your feeling, be yourself or not be yourself, etc. Is it good? Depends on how you'...

It might not be the right time to discuss about this topic but it will never be the right time anyway for this topic... At this age of 42, there's always a question from, mainly, my mom and others when I will be settling down and have children. I'd say "Settling down, maybe, but having children never cross my mind." I might thought about it 20 years ago with the most stupid reason ever, just to tight up my ex with me. Absolutely grateful that baby didn't happen. But since then, the thought of having baby never again occur. Before I can go further, please don't judge  and don't be offended. My perspective on this matter and yours might be different. We all have different reason to believe or not believe in something. It doesn't mean that I don't agree with you nor that you need to understand my point of view.  Back to the reason, I have been wondering what exactly the reason to have children? I cannot say "Love" because, if i have to inclu...

  It's been a long time since my last post in 2018!! So many things going on in my life that I totally lost my interested in writing. Last year was extremely a big challenge, physically and mentally. This Pandemic, no gym, no swimming, no office, no time spending with friends. So yes, I admitted that I was completely lost it after 6 months working from home. It wasn't about missing the office, it's just about losing a freedom to go out, to see friends, to walk around freely (without facemask and face shield), to have chit chat with friends, to hang out, etc.  I was also worry at the beginning about this COVID, because I have this allergic condition which would always cause me a dry cough or heavy cough depends on the weather. I would easily have a sore throat. I always have a difficulty breathing. So, I could definitely say that I've never like wearing face mask and face shield all together because it just increased my difficulty breathing to another level!!  But I was ...